THE SOCIAL MEDIA SUMMER SABBATICAL CONTINUES: day 5
Remembering – what it was like “before”. Prior to these past 8 years when creative personal experience (thought) transformed (more) through art, writing and photography. Poetry. Letters.
Remembering- away from the feeling of “no responses” (See also: no likes/favs/loves) and ego transforming that feeling to “rejection. you’re unloved by your peers.”
Freedom from constant external negative reinforcement.
Remembering- I don’t need to interpret “my experience” in order for it to be.
The yard is full of monarchs today. I realize I’m “allowed” to use my VINE account and document 6 seconds of backyard. I don’t share the clip anywhere. Heaven.
Saturday june 25th
[# 4 blogpost for #SocialMediaSummerSabbatical ]
Next: #5- Things you cannot do while tweeting or checking facebook
Day 2 – Day 3
Stomach virus. Normally, someone would be wondering why I wasn’t tweeting.
Peek at my other anonymous twitter account. Immediately close. Later peek at my main accounts notifications and SEE A NUMBER. “Why are people @ing me? I’m off? Can’t you see?” Don’t check. I text my niece and then call. We talk for 2 hours.
I’m reading the Times and news sites daily. What do you mean I can’t sound off about Freddie Gray? Sanders on Colbert”? BBC America’s new show “Thirteen”? The 25 hour congressional sit-in for gun control? (I call Senators Rubio and Nelson.)
“West Side Story” is on TCM and I can’t announce the irony of witnessing SCOTUS thwart Immigration Reform 55 years later…I like to be in America?
KELLY CARLIN WHEREVER YOU ARE (which is Scotland today along with Trump) – I CAN’T BELIEVE WE’RE NOT ON #SM FOR #BREXIT .
6.24.16.Friday
[# 3 blogpost for #SocialMediaSummerSabbatical – go to bottom left or right (titles) for other posts]
THE SOCIAL MEDIA SUMMER SABBATICAL CONTINUES: day 5
day 1
“Good Morning! I love you, Lisa!”
Did I say that? To myself? Should I even turn my phone on? I will to check texts. No texts. I can do this.
Hot water and lemon juice, sun-greeting, coffee. I’ve usually already checked all (3) of my Twitter accounts and scanned Facebook. I continue to read the paper. Where’s Sunday’s NY Times? I wonder how many retweeted my LAST tweet last night? Why am I still getting notifications on Facebook? How do I uninstall this? I can do this. Looking forward to my own outrage! It’s the first day of summer.
Is the sky bluer today?
17 hours since last Social Media Post :
Quiet. Such quiet the RINGING is so loud in my ears. But. Still.
Feeling of stillness. Anxious. Happy not to be checking in and looking down every time I pass my phone!
I have an outside experience and don’t tweet or Facebook the moment.
24 hours:
If I could tweet, I would tweet out I-CAN-FUCKING-DO-THIS (and it’s great and freeing~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~)
[# 2 blogpost for #SocialMediaSummerSabbatical – go to bottom left or right (titles) for other posts]
How to beat back uncontrollable anxiety in 6 easy steps.
I don’t actually know 6 easy steps nor is my anxiety uncontrollable, but a huge trip is coming and I have spent much of precious preparation time on catastrophizing, which surely must have its root in catatonic because I can’t feel forward momentum. I can feel fear and reasons not to go but they say to push pass your fears in order to get out of your comfort zone in order to challenge yourself.
I’m good at doing that. But the fact that my inaction is at a catatonic level, I don’t think any experience can outrun the cloud of melancholia following me.
I fear I’m way better in my comfort zone and that’s about as good as it’s gonna get.
Is that so bad?
The Longest Day 