I don’t actually know 6 easy steps nor is my anxiety uncontrollable, but a huge trip is coming and I have spent much of precious preparation time on catastrophizing, which surely must have its root in catatonic because I can’t feel forward momentum. I can feel fear and reasons not to go but they say to push pass your fears in order to get out of your comfort zone in order to challenge yourself.

I’m good at doing that. But the fact that my inaction is at a catatonic level, I don’t think any experience can outrun the cloud of melancholia following me.

I fear I’m way better in my comfort zone and that’s about as good as it’s gonna get.

Is that so bad?